and I have never experienced true physical exhaustion of my body like i have this week.

but it feels so, so good.

So I haven’t written in a while.  It probably has to do with my preoccupation with school and having to work on the computer 24/7 to complete assignments. I’m sick of the computer, and I’m sick of homework. I’ve had a nice little break for the past few days though, because I caught the fantastic pig virus and have been recovering from that all week.  I got lucky and only had one sbux shift to cover so I was able to stay home and eat lots and lots of soup.  Tomato soup. And… pumpkin seeds. Mmm.

My family has been quarantining me and I am not allowed to touch any food or towels or any sinks except for the downstairs bathroom one.  Nobody wants to get sick from me (and trust me, I don’t want them to get sick either it’s awful and eats up your work vacation hours).

Lately I’ve been planning a road trip to Boise, ID and I’m surprised my parents didn’t oppose.  The whole idea was for me to split the gas cost with Jack and then have the extra money to shred the gnar on the mountain for that much longer once we got there.  I seriously want to poop my pants every time I think about being able to go snowboarding.  POOP THEM. I love to snowboard and I love cold weather and I can’t wait to experience that when I go home.  Arizona has been so ridiculously warm, and then when it (rarely) gets down to 50 degrees, all the retards here run into Starbucks with scarves and jackets and freaking boots and ask for hot drinks because it’s “so cold.”

WTF IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE.

Then, last night I planned a snowboarding trip with my Sbux friends. Since I was sick and had all day to do nothing better, I did about 3 hours of researching prices and places to stay.  Then I was an asshole and sent an effing mean message to everyone in the group about someone’s boyfriend coming which I royally regret. But I apologized to her separately and I think everything’s alright now. I was in such a bad mood yesterday, I was fricken tired of being sick and cooped up in the damn house for four days, and I was irritated at the trip because things were getting expensive and I’m already spending more than you could ever imagine on this Boise excursion.  And I was irritated at not making enough money for the things I want to do, and I snapped a Jack a few times because even he got on my nerves about a number of things. Yesterday was awful, I was really mean, and I hope everyone forgives me for it because I was an ass.  I just need to get over being sick, and I guarantee the quality of my mood and everyone else’s lives when I’m around them will increase.

I think I’m going to go do the shizload of homework I have waiting for me before I explode because there’s really no objective to this post.

I GET TO

COME HOME

THIS WINTER!

today is going to be a good day.

Today was just a reminder that I am only human.
I make awful mistakes, and I have a lot to work on.

i’m not really sure where this is going to go, or if things will get better, or if they will get worse. i’m a little out of my element.