anna's psyche*

a year ago today, my best friend died in a fatal car accident. her name was marie-kristin and she was the most amazing and beautiful person who has ever entered my life.

when i was alone and needed someone to talk to, marie was there for me. when i was sick and tired of life, marie was there. whether i had bad news or good news, marie was there. when i lay on the hospital bed, delusional and confused, marie as there. and even now, when i’m unsure and don’t know what to do — i think of her, and i know that she’s there.

and she wasn’t just there for me; she was there for everyone. she genuinely loved and cared about every single person, no matter who they were or where they came from. she didn’t care about fashion or trends or having the latest anything — what mattered to her was people, humanity, and living and loving with a passion.

it didn’t matter to her if someone had down’s syndrome, or if they wore the ugliest clothes and had no friends, or if they were gay or if they had no self-confidence. when others talk about treating people equally, it’s all talk. what other people held as principles to think by, she lived and expressed with each breath she took.

she stood up for everyone, and would not let anyone be pushed down or bullied for their differences. she never tried to change anyone; she accepted them as they were and made them feel loved, despite their flaws and mistakes. she was there when someone needed a shoulder to lean on, an ear to listen and a heart to understand. she gave all of us hope.

she was truthful, honest, and always followed her heart.

i can never find the right words to describe who she is, because she is a million times more amazing than anything i would ever be able to express through a few simple lines of writing.

“this is the endless cover and snow and earth, and this is the giant, glorious, burning orb that makes your life possible, and right here, there’s you. this tiny, this insignificant. you can’t touch any of this. you can’t affect a thing. just stand there and watch, before you move on with your life and effortlessly forget what you really are.” - - - marie-kristin friedow

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